i had a dream!!! ^^

dream of arashi ne~~

uwaaa~!!!
feeling good,,,
soooo good~!!!!
cho ureshi!!!!
kakkoi!!!!

me,,
was on the set of arashi's photobook's shoot,,

have a big crush on aiba,,
but didnt show it obviously,,
embarassed,,
can see his face clearly,,
and my heart was pounding faster,,
but,, nino told me he has a fever,,
and asked me to visit him,,
poor him,,
i'll take care of u ne~

nino is my fren,,
he know i like aiba,,
he text me bout arashi's current condition,,
pages of them along with pics,,
especially on aiba chan,,
we actually went back home together,,
walking and chatting,,
but weird,,, he can speak english,,,
or more or less,, i can understand his speakings...
ahahaha!!!

can barely touch sakurai,,
bcoz he was wearing some sort of cloth,,
errr,, long cloth that looks like a dress,,
i went to him unconsciously bcoz i was too curious,,
but nino pulled me back,,
telling me not to touch him,,
bcoz,,, errr,, i dunno y...
trouble???

i can see matsujun,,
he was standing beside sakurai,,
but that's all,,

oh-chan,,,
not sure weither i can see him,,
but yes,, he was there,,
but i dont pay much attention to him,,
gomen ne oh-chan..

and,, the end...

still it makes me feeling soo good today,,,
i'm smiling again...
ne arashi-chan,,, aishiteruyo~~~~~
^_^

why?

why cant i have that feeling?
the feeling that everyone here are having
at this moment, right now...

they have....
the feeling of joy..
the feeling of excitement..
the feeling of eagerness..
the feeling of impatience..
the 'cant wait' feeling..

i have....
the feeling of sadness..
the feeling of ungratefulness..
the feeling of sorrow..
the feeling of burdensome..
the 'dont want to' feeling..

that spot..
where everyone else have been wanting to go..
but i dont..

that thingy..
which everybody else is so excited over..
but i am not..

that people..
who everyone else have been wanting to meet..
but i have a mixed feeling..

that period..
that everyone else have been waiting for so long..
but i am not..

that warmness..
which everyone else have been feeling each time..
but i cant..

how ungrateful i am...
forgive me..
from deep of my heart..
this is not what i want..
but i cant help it..
i am the bad guy after all..
blame me for all those feelings..
(TT_TT)

yatta~!!!

finally~~~
YES!!! FINALLY~!!!!
i can come back to you~~~~~

after about 44 hours not meeting you,,,
i'm soooo missing u!!!!

the 44 hours period was so hard...
my heart was trembling faster,,
my eyes kept looking around,,
my head kept imagining on u,,
my mind kept thinking of u,,
my feet was always wanting to come to u,,
my hand was always wanting to touch u,,

but i CANT!!!!
bcoz i've got 4 quizzes today...
and now all the head-aching quizzes had ended,,
errr,,, dont ask what have i answered for the quizzes...

bcoz NOW,,,
we can meet again~~~!!!!
yayyy~~!!!!
"BEAUTIFUL"~!!!!!
\(^0^)/

i miss u o my deary lappy~~~
kekekkeke~~!!!!

panda eyes,, omo (@_@)

i dunno the reasons,,
but lately my eyes always appear like panda eyes,,,
lack of sleep???
nah~~~ i dont think so...
too many sleep???
hurmmm,, dunno,, maybe,, but can it lead to eye bags????

i've never had panda eyes before i guess,,,
or more or less i didnt realise it,,,
but i am quite sure i've never had them...
juz lately,,, and quite often... bleh~~~~

i think the reason 4 my panda eyes is,,,,,,
for always and keep on teasing seugri's panda eyes,,, so much...
ngeee~~~

seungri-ssi mianhaeyo... m(_ _)m

in the middle of lots of works

nap lover
eeteuk as he would always take a nap while waiting to perform in the waiting room

the singer
yesung as he as the most beatiful voice that i love so much

the creative one
ohno of course,, he is the artist yappari...

the dramatic one
donghae,,, well it;s more to emotional than dramatic actually


the intense one
sakurai,, he'll make a good father i can assume..

the awkward one
seungri,,, hoho!!! dunno how to explain,,, but yes it is...

the chill one
top,,, it's hard to read his expression,, he is almost like expressionless

the mushroom lover


the sheltered one


the misunderstood


the smart one
sakurai,,, he is the newscaster after all

the evil master mind
ninomiya,,, cant think of other people,,, he is naughty and noisy,,, loves to prank on other people

the fatty
shindong goon,,, he lost 20,, then gain back 5 then 10 then 15... he never cares bout his physics and he is a very good dancer

the gangster
changmin,,, he is the maknae(youngest) yet the stongest and others doesnt like to mess with him

the saviour
aiba,, yay~~~ the miracle boy....!!!


the hot one
aiba,, he always sweating and he's HOT~~~

the technology illiterate


the smitten one


the one that wont take the crap
matsumoto,,, he is a perfectionist i think and does hate stupid things

the confused one
hankyung,,, always got a blur face on his face

the party animal
heechul,,, he always has an aura of partying even he is not with the other 12,,, even he is alone

the referee


the whip wielder


the loud one
kangin,,, he has the most biggest mouth that cant never be shut,,, it's always he who talk the most when he is around in the show

the good driver
matsujun,,, well-known as a "GOOD" driver


the not so innocent one


the quiet one
kibum,, always dissappearing..

the arrogant one
seungri,,, and he talks too much


~~~~~ah,, it's hard for me to classify the others...
i wanted to try it bcoz it has 28 icons,,
which means big bang + arashi + dbsk + suju
which means in more detail 5 + 5 + 5 + 13 =28
but i've failed to label all the icons so far... (@_@)
maybe i'll edit this later,,,
minna san,,, any idea????

eh,, have to go to ummu's room now...
got a work to be done~!!!!!

bz weeks

this week: bio quiz, chem quiz
next week: bio quiz, chem quiz, tutor chem, assignment bio, quiz math
next next week: oliday aka STDY WEEK 4 midsem
next next next week: mid sem...
oh no~!!!
plus,,
no money...
my head is getting shinier....

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........

2 hours of skulls~

yayy!!!
finally i've done all the bones drawings...
aaah~~ *kekeke,,, sound familiar?*
relief!!!!
(^___^)V