wishes, dilemma & practical

first of all lemme start wit some bday wishes...
yay~~~~!!!!!!

24th,,,,
my dearest roomate...
jang, jang jang~~~~!!!!
anis juwairiyah bt edrus...
p/s: cewah,, bajet study la tu... ekekekeke~~!!!! XD
epi bday dear...
may all of ur hopes in the wishlist be achieved...
amiin...
be happy always...
smile, smile, smile...
but dont OVERsmile, ok....
dont take others' problems too serious till that it affects u...
just take it easy maaaa...
and wish u the very best in all ur choices,,
ur doings,, ur studies,,
ur activities,, ur dreams,,
and whatever yours...
(^.^)
gonna miss u if u r really going to pursue ur stdy at other place...
good luck~!

proceed,,,
25th...
my classmate since 1st sem till today...
siti noratiqah bt samat
epi bday sayang~~~~
ko patot berbangge sbb ak wish ko kat cni,,,
bukan sebarang org ak ubuh nme penuh diye kat cni..
though u may actually not read this,,, haha!!!!
XD

another 25th,,,,
sakurai sho..
otanjoubi omedetaou gozaimasu~~~~!!!!

and another 25th,,,,
lee junho aka mini-rain
nomu saengil chukhahae~~~!!!
oh, he really looks like rain!!!

and last but not least,,,,
26th
kim jaejoong-shi....
nomu nomu nomu saengil cukhakhae~~~!!!!
the prettiest boy i have ever known
though he dont know me,,,
haha!!!

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i am in dilemma...
big, big dilemma....
what should i do???
confused, afraid, uncertain!!!!
it is full of maybes!!!!
which one should i choose???
medic, pharmacy or dentistry???

MEDIC
it's a branch of bio and more bio
maybe i can endure with lots of bio
urmmm,, maybe la....
but then,,,
i dunno if i can endure the tensionness of being a doctor
a work that need a full and strong desire self
a work that need a heart of sacrification and strong will,
a heart of volunteering to sacrifice
and i know that i am not that type of person..
i am not a person
who can just forget or stop
the enjoyness or craziness of life
just like that...
plus,,
i am now not sure
if i can endure all the gross thingy of human body,,
though i was once okay
with the pics or vids some people consider as gross,
but today,,
it's kind of weird..
i dunno what had happen
yes, i still can see lots of blood,
i can see some of those thingy,,
but since i have never been in the operation room,
the real one,
unlike people who had apply for jpa once ago,,,
so i dunno and i am not sure which am i..
brave enough or not

PHARMACY
it's a branch of bio and chemistry,,,
hmmmm... chemistry....
organic makes me crazy sometimes,,
this is the elementary organic i am talking about,
not the expert level.. b
ut maybe of hard work, study and revision
maybe i can accept it well..
but then,,,,
pharmacist is the one who are not dealing with people
they only deal with medicine all the time...
and most of the time alone...
can i endure the loneliness in working??
maybe not kot...
perhaps i'll talk alone the kill the boredom
i'll just walk back and forth in front of the medicine stocks
oh. music can help..
but is it appropriate to listen to it while working..?
urm, the point is, i'll b working alone
and i think i am not a person who can endure loneliness
i prefer to have a room with roomates rather than a single person room,
i prefer to go shopping with others rather than alone,
eh ye ke?
i even prefer to go to cafe all along with people rather than by myself
maybe i like to be alone too,, sometimes..
how bout all the times?
yes? NO?

DENTISTRY
it's a branch of bio and physics...
and, dang! i hate physics..
maths is quite okay, but physics...
i dont like numbers with applications!
and my results so far for physics are only so-so..
i once got 4/10 for the quiz..
and dizzyiness come while i answer the questions,,
coz physics is not about to remember all the formulas and concepts
we have to be able to manipulate the formulas
in all situations and applications given
which i dont empower how to...
physics always give me headache
and screams on the questions,
yes,, other subject too
but not as worst as physics i guess
but then,,,
the work of dentist is not as hard as doctor,
as it is not of overall of the human body to be work with,
yes, people's mouth can be gross too,
but it's not as gross as human's body
and it is not as lonely as pharmacist,
as we still have to deal with people and all,
meeting and treating patient.
yet,, t
he work is about all the same routine over again,
and it give a tendency to have backache..
and plus PHYSICS...

*sigh*
the interview can be anytime now
i was once sure to be a dentist
though mom wants me to a doctor
but now,,
i am confused again...oh, crap!!!!

YA ALLAH YA TUHANKU,
berikanlah aku petunjuk Mu,,
tunjukkanlahku jalan yg terbaik untuk diriku..
sesungguhnya ENGKAU Maha Mengetahui apa yg kami tidak ketahui...
AMIIN~

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just done my chemistry practical exam just now
i dunno how i was doing overall,,
yes, trembling is a must...
there are TWO things that i consider as mistakes,,
ah, it is surely mistakes!
and these are mistakes that are in my concious,,,

first,,,
the instruction is
"put one spatula of solid in 10ml of water"...
then, shouldn't i supposely put the water first into the beaker
and only then put the solid, kan???
but i did it vise versa,
i put solid first than water,,
am i wrong or it actually doesn't matter???
who knows????
raise ur hand pls...

and the second thing,
the verbal question i got
"this is chemical or physical separation?"
i am always blur,
sooo blur at on-the-spot question
my head was processing,,,
"errr,,, this is filtration,,, s
ooo the separation is,,
errrr,,, aaaaaaa,, chemical? ke physical?
phsical? ke chemical?"
and when i have not done thinking yet,,
my mouth, out of suden said "chemical?"
argh!!!!! dang it!!!
and the brother who evaluates me nodded,
and then i was,,, huh? what the
he then said "okay boley amek henset, mekaseh"
meaning i have lost my opportunity to give a correct answer
isnt it supposed to be physical separation????
then why did i answer chemical separation????
as soon as i am out,,
i almost scream out of concious...
but there were cleaners out there
i actually scream when the cleaners were out of my sight,
and i squeak all the way back,,
though there were people all around..
but it's a silent squeak,,
haaaaaa...
i was more nervous on the way back compared to on the way i came... huuuuuuuuuuuuuh~~~~!!!!!!!
how about mistakes that i aint realised????